Sunday, October 16, 2011

Missed

Husband and I went to a wedding last night. It was beautiful and touching, like all weddings should be. When the bride walked up the aisle on the arm of her Grandfather and Mother I started to cry and I continued to fight back tears for the entire evening.

There was a little old lady at the buffet whose younger friend or relative was helping to get her food dished up. I had to walk away because it so reminded me of Nannie.

When the bride's Grandfather toasted the new couple I almost lost it completely.

All evening all I could think about was how sad I was that Nannie will not be here for my brother's wedding. She was so very proud of him, she really liked his best beloved, and would have been thrilled to see them say their vows to each other - to see him start off his new life with the woman he loves. Nannie loved Scientist Genius Brother so very much.


I know she will be with us in spirit but I am selfish, I want her there for real. I want her back. I miss her so so very much.

My heart hurts.

3 comments:

Life with Kaishon said...

I am so very, very sorry for your loss.
Grandmas are the most special sorts of people on the planet, aren't they? Magical in every way.

Nana said...

I was thinking about her and missing her, not knowing you were, too. Except I know you miss her every day. She is with us always, in our hearts, dear daughter.

MOM #1 said...

That's so sad and so sweet all at the same time. I'm so sorry for your loss, but so happy about the beautiful festive occasion. Life is just one great, big, fat contradiction, You know.